What was the best year of your life so far?

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Me 11 years I. Cane believe you will don't in two

A I have no life.
B I like boards.
C I like boards.

I'd say around 1998-2000 .. being aged about 8 to 10 was blissful in hindsight. At that age your whole future is still a long way away so you are able to wonder what might happen, and being that age you tend to assume it'll all be great. And because all your peers at that age are "at the same level" as you since you are all in school, nobody had "shifted" anyone yet etc. there is less of a feeling of social inferiority/superiority that emerges as time goes by. You just tend to be a lot more mentally healthy at that age than when you get older, I would say. I'd say maybe 1999 was the best year of my life. Playing PlayStation, watching cartoons, playing outside, enjoying school, capable of experiencing crisp mental experiences, daydreaming and using my imagination.

I did like 2004 out of all the years 2002 onwards (.. teenage discos, no state exams that year, awakened mentally to deep questions about life, reality, the world, without yet having thought so deeply as for it to have had a harmful impact, had a decent holiday abroad etc..) although I did develop obsessive thoughts about death that year which ruined my life for a long time after.

2006/7 had their good points for me too. I remember a sense of luxuriousness about those times which even then disturbed me, and I wasnt from a rich household, i just mean from looking around me. I had made some good friends at school by then and the internet was just getting fast which a novelty at the time.. had some good holidays too. Among multiple other reasons.

But every year since 2008 onwards are like a different dimension in terms of mental ill health for me though, and there are many factors personal and societal that I feel contributed to that. It literally feels like the reality from before 2008 is a different life I lived, there is no juiciness or sense of vitality anymore in my subjective experience of life, just a blunted numb feeling.